Less than 60...ah!

Just reflecting on the fact that I'm going to Peru in 59 days. The past couple weeks have been crazy. I've been working more hours at LensCrafters and I got an early morning babysitting job so I just feel like I'm working all the time. I read a great passage in Oswald Chambers' My Utmost for His Highest today (but then again, I read a great passage in My Utmost almost every day). Really applies to my life now and challenges I'll face in Peru. Here's an excerpt:

It is much easier to do something than to trust in God; we see the activity and mistake panic for inspiration. That is why we see so few fellow workers with God, yet so many people working for God. We would much rather work for God than believe in Him. Do I really believe that God will do in me what I cannot do? The degree of hopelessness I have for others comes from never realizing that God has done anything for me. Is my own personal experience such a wonderful realization of God’s power and might that I can never have a sense of hopelessness for anyone else I see? Has any spiritual work been accomplished in me at all? The degree of panic activity in my life is equal to the degree of my lack of personal spiritual experience.

It's a reminder that God is the one in charge of my life, not me. Easily forgotten but always true.